First Love True Love

by Rowena
(Philippines)

I had my first love/boyfriend when I was 18 years old.
He courted me when I was 16 and a junior high school student. We both were.I believed it was pure and simple attraction on his part as I always catch him staring at me on bus rides. It irritates me then and makes me self conscious. He then found a way to know me and thus embark on an unrelenting pursuit for 2 years which made him almost like a stalker leaving me disgusted in its wake. I finally said yes to his amorous advances to make him stop! Yeah,a close buddy told me to say yes and he will stop courting you! (but of course! there's no more need to).Our love story is a tempestuous, turbulent, emotional roller coaster which left us drained.Our love affair is a vicious cycle of break-up, kiss and make-up syndrome and I lost track of the times we went through it, I think it qualifies us for a world record of some sort.In the process I fell for him so hard it seemed like sickness. He finally ended up with somebody else he got pregnant with while working abroad and left me brokenhearted. I opted just to be a single mother with a daughter from another man. I don't want to marry. The legacy of my first love is so painful and disastrous.But I never stopped thinking about him and loving him all these years. His memory haunts me and just recently we met again because he looked for me and he said he never stopped loving me too and that he suffered in his marriage because it is me he truly loved.We're now in our fifties and he's now divorced and he told me to wait until he has straightened out the legal obstacles of his first marriage. I haven't seen him in 18 years since he got married and now he's about to be free and if this is not true love then what could this be?